Dalamhati ng Puso

Hindi ko lubos maintindihan kung bakit kung kailan mo sila pinakakailangan, yun din ang panahon na iiwanan ka nila sa ere. Kahit anong rason ang sabihin ko sa sarili ko na baka masyado lang silang abala kung kaya’t hindi sila makapaglaan ng panahon sa akin, hindi ko pa rin maintindihan. Masakit man isipin, pero wala akong magawa. Umiyak man ako’t magmakaawa, wala’t wala pa rin.

Talagang masakit lalo na’t tinuring mo pa naman silang malapit at tunay na kaibigan. Hindi ko maipaliwanag sa sarili ko kung bakit ito nangyayari. Masama ba akong kaibigan? May nagawa ba akong mali? Kung meron man, sana naman sabihin nila sa akin.

Sabi nila, nagmamalasakit sila. Pero bakit hindi ko madama? Hindi ba’t ang pagmamalasakit ay ginagawa at ipinaparamdam, hindi lang sinasabi? Kung tunay ngang may malasakit sila sa akin, bakit hindi nila ako kayang harapin at kausapin man lang?

Masakit talagang isipin na ang taong pinaghuhugutan mo ng lakas, ang siya ring taong hihila sa iyo pababa at iiwanan kang mag-isa. Hindi naman ako mangmang para hindi makaintindi kung talagang ayaw niyo na sa akin. Madali lang naman akong kausap.

Kung kaya’t ito na lang ang masasabi ko sa inyo (kung sino man kayo), salamat. Salamat sa lahat ng naibahagi niyo sa akin. Sa pagiging kaibigan ko sa maikli man o mahabang panahon. Salamat sa panahong iginugol niyo sa akin at sa mga aral na ipinamalas niyo sa akin. Ang lahat ng ito’y habang buhay kong tatanawin. Sana’y mapatawad niyo rin ako sa mga pagkukulang ko sa inyo. Alam kong hindi ako perpektong tao, ngunit sana’y malaman niyo na ginagawa ko naman ang lahat na kaya kong maibigay sa ngalan ng pagkakaibigan. Kung kaya’y kung sakali mang kulang pa ang lahat ng iyon at kung may pagkakamali man ako sa inyo sana’y mapatawad niyo rin ako.

Ayokong magpaalam…

Life's Journey

Life has never been easy. I guess it was meant to be like that. If it wasn’t, life wouldn’t be so worth living at all.

Life is meant to be shared, not just to one person but to everybody. That is why friends exist to take part of our journey.

The road of life is long and winding. The trip even promises us it won’t be just all fun but rather it would be exhausting.

But that’s life. We learn lots of things as we go along with it. We meet and lose people along the way, but we will never be alone that’s a promise it would surely claim.

Life for me has been a roller coaster ride. Each curve has been memorable. I’ve been hurt a lot and have been blessed bountifully too. I lost people who are dear to me and yet I met new ones to fill that void. The ups and downs have pushed me to my limits, even to the point of giving up. But I’ve stood still, held my ground and I moved on. I’ve conquered too many falls already and I found glory in my defeat. I might have faced my fears ungracefully but I have resurfaced with poise and more dignity.

I thank my friends for being there for me. Their presence is but my light in this journey.

My life wouldn’t be this meaningful and beautiful without all of you. 

You, Me and Rain

Outside, it’s pouring hard

Inside, I’m going mad.

My heart’s in trouble deep,

With you I want to weep.

But thunder struck

And I’m out of luck

I need you now

But where art thou?

The wind is scorning cold

My limbs are all but numb

I need the warmth of your embrace

Oh please, I need you now.

The smell of rotten rain

Polluted my sunken heart

The memories I cannot erase

I plead, but I had no luck.

The sound of your voice I miss

As it melts my giddy heart

Your touch and the scent that it emits

Surely is the better place to start.

But you could never be found,

The world has become so dark

Where else would now I’ll be

With you I know that’s where I’m supposed to be.