Anger rose like an irate volcano,

Words hot as lava ready to bring havoc.

Self couldn’t be contained.

No room left for any evacuation.

It’s already triggered.

There’s no turning back.

I am mad.

There’s no consoling this time.

I wouldn’t allow it.

I’ve had enough.

Enough of the fancy words,

They’re no longer appealing.

Enough of the funny jokes,

Can’t you see I’m no longer smiling?

Enough of the words of wisdom,

I don’t believe it anyway.

Enough of the hopeful words,

I’ve already given up.

Enough is enough!

I am mad.

Just let me be.


I’m not such a fan of the movie Camp Rock but because my daughter loved it, I quite of watched it a million times already. What’s interesting about the movie was not of the actors who portrayed the roles but the songs that were featured. And there was one quote that was mentioned in the movie that I happened to like – “Every song can’t be a hit, but it doesn’t mean that we’ll stop singing”.

Yes! Not all songs became hit because if they did, we could still be hearing them being played in the air up to these days. Some were seasonal just like Christmas songs that were only played during Christmas season. A fair few lasted a couple of weeks in the chart and that’s it! But, what are in these songs really that we can’t help but listen to them? There are songs that we made theme songs to our lives whether it’ s for a lover, a friend or even to an enemy. And despite the fact that they’re no longer IN for this particular era, we still keep it in our playlist and from time to time listen to them. So, is it safe to quote “Your song: song ng buhay ko”?

I love listening to music. I love the way it made me feel – it compliments my mood or it comforts me. Music feeds my soul. I’ve composed a handful of songs and I bet it’s enough already for an album. (Anyone to volunteer as my producer? heheehe) And each of them reflects what I felt during that particular moment. So I quote – “Every song is a reflection of an emotion”.

I happened to like this song – “Remember me this way” by Jordan Hill (a soundtrack of the movie Casper). It talks about friendship; of finding someone who you can relate to and turn to when no one is willing to take your side. And despite the complication of the circumstance, the song conveyed that the other one will be remembered and the other wants to be remembered. For quite some time, this song made an impact on my life. It’s no longer a hit, it’s no longer IN but it is still in my playlist. I used to like this song a lot since it reminds me that I have a friend out there that cares for me. Like I’ve said, I used to like this song…used to… but I don’t hate it either. It’s just that I hate the way it made me feel lately whenever I hear it playing. I hate the way it brought back memories of the past and of a broken promise. I hate to even think that I lost someone I cared about without even given the chance to fight for it. Just like the quote – “A battle long lost before it even started”.

So the quote goes that not all songs can be a hit but it doesn’t mean that I’ll stop singing. I’ll sing whenever I want. I’ll write songs that reflects my emotions. I’ll make songs be the song of my life. And you’ll be remembered. It’s no longer a battle.