The Green Rose

It seemed as if I lived in the past

For I can still see you here every now and then.

You're not really here technically

But all things seem to remind me of you.

I tried to live past through that life

A life that breathes only you.

I was broken beyond repair then

I couldn't want that life again.

But here I am, again in this fork

Torn and lost, which way to turn?

No matter how I try to escape

Your ghost still haunts me every single day.

That greenish glow I thought was mine

My promised salvation in this damned life.

Deceived and blinded by its beauty

It was still you, my green parody.

I couldn't escape the tormenting pain

It's green poison's seeping through my veins.

I'm half alive but I'm still sane

My heart wept, I'll never be the same.

As darkness enveloped the light

My eyes reopened in this greenish bright.

I was stunned, I couldn't believe my eyes

My Rose is here, and the Kryptonite?

#ChroniclesOfTheKryptonite 

The Kryptonite

The journey is yet to begin

Into the vastness I shall step in.

I brought with me a bag of hope

And a memory my heart still holds.

The past is beyond me now

The future is still so vague.

Fear and worries are last on my list

Where else should I will be but in this place.

No Rose to haunt me now

Only a memory to keep.

No thorns to cut me through

What else is there to weep?

From a far a light has shone

Its greenish sparkle blurred my eyes.

What a beauty! What a sight!

A gem for me in this dark night.

I was drawn into this beauty

My heart cried in glee.

The thought of finally being free

From a long past that has been my misery.

Nearer and nearer I get

Emotions raging in.

Fear of the unknown finally settling in

I couldn’t stay away, I was drawn in.

It shone so bright

Despite the darkness of the night.

Could it be my promised light?

Well, it was just a kryptonite.

#ChroniclesOfTheKryptonite

The End of the Chronicles of Rose

Time has its story to tell,

Every fleeting moment corresponds a page.

Chapter after chapter has been written,

And now the ending came.

Numbness yet engulfed my heart,

The pain has become surreal.

The hope has become a parody,

My life was a sad comedy.

The Rose has bloomed into magnificence,

My loss surmounts the epic pain.

Its glory has become my ending,

Its beauty became my shame.

Deluded I was for a long time,

My insanity was beyond recovery.

I was lost in my own reverie,

The Rose was my personal lunacy.

Now that the end is here,

No words can describe how I feel.

Broken is an understatement,

No hope was left for me.

So now I’m closing the book,

The journey ends for me.

One last thing for me to say,

Good bye my Rose... maybe someday.

#ChroniclesOfRose #Finally

Thorned Rose

Sharp thorns cut through my heart

As the Rose fade into the night.

Its poison seeping through my veins

Numbness reigned, I was in pain.

My eyes wept with blood-stained tears

As darkness mocks me ceaselessly.

The heart I knew cease to exist

No beat, no thud, not even a single flip.

My soul died yet another death

No glory found in every defeat.

I cease to live, I became a void

Only the Rose could change my fate.

I call on thee

Oh, Rose hear me plea.

Free me from this bondage

Save me from this misery.

#ChroniclesOfRose

Death for a Rose

Lost in the sea of souls,

Trapped in my own reverie;

Soul lost in the trance of time,

Who would have thought,

      I never knew why..

From a far the rose has fallen

Dreams shattered,

     My heart was broken.

Blood spilled like tears in vain,

Never ending grief

     In my heart remained.

Enclosed in the comfort of pain,

My heart longed for my rose to stay.

Cannot let go

      I won’t let go

My rose, my love

     Where’d you go?

And now I taste the bitterness

      Of sorrow beyond relief.

The surging madness

      Drowning me deep.

All hope’s draining

     Into the air,

I need your love Oh Rose,

    Do hear my plea.

I grieve

     For the death of my heart.

I mourn

     For the loss that it could never have.

Songs of lament

     Torments my soul

My soul died

    In the hands of my Rose…

#ChroniclesOfRose

A Whisper to a Rose

Every single idle moment I have, I remember that night. How can I forget? It was the night my heart broke into a million shards. The road for me was forever blocked, no forks to decide which way to go after this. There’s no turning back, only to move forward. But the question is, where is forward?

I was lost. I forgot how to live. A part of me died that night. And now, I’m like a walking dead; empty and hollow. Wondering and questioning fate for bringing this into my plate. I am mess. I am a wreck. I don’t know how to help myself. But I have to make a strong front. I have to...

Months have passed and yet the feeling of being buried alive is still too strong. I am stuck and confused. My mind wanted to let go and move on but my stubborn heart kept on holding on. Hoping that maybe one day, he’ll get to realize the mistake he’d done. Pathetic I may have been to others but I cannot fool my heart. It has reasons that my mind couldn’t understand. Letting go would simply mean goodbye and forgetting. I don’t want to forget even if it hurts so much. I don’t want to forget everything that we have shared. But that’s just me, and not you.

The days have become so dragging. Being away from you and not being able to communicate with you is just too much to handle. My heart breaks knowing that you’re just near and yet you seemed so far away. The silence between us is so deafening. I missed the days when talking to you was as easy as breathing. I miss the sound of your voice and the warmth of your smile. I miss the way you look at me with those brown eyes and the way your brows tensed up every time you hold back a smile. I miss the way our hands collide as if it were perfectly matched. I miss everything about you but I wonder if you ever missed me too.

Since that night, I was never the same. You did this to me, stole a part of me. How can I go on living with a missing piece? Can I ever be happy again?

I know, I have to let you go. The soonest would be better. It is only my heart that is the problem, because no matter how I reasoned with it, it just won’t listen. It has been too painful already. Knowing that everything was lost in the abyss, you’re not coming back. I know my heart can only hold so much pain, but right now it’s too numb yet to feel anything. I just worry that I might get used to the pain so much that it won’t matter anymore.

For now, I could only hope for your happiness. May you be happy without me… May she be able to make you happy… Your happiness means so much for me, even if it means my downfall I will endure it. I could never thank you enough for coming into my life. I never thought someone like you really exists. More so, I never ever thought that someone like you would make me feel special.

It’s not yet goodbye my Rose. I couldn’t even imagine saying goodbye to you. But for now, I have to say something. Something to make me feel a bit better and to remind myself that despite everything, I still have to live. So let me say – Till then my Rose…

#ChroniclesOfRose

Betrayed By A Rose

Looking from a far

    I stare...

Lost in the trance of your beauty.

Your crimson color

    burried me deep,

In a spell enchanted

    and serene.

Your scent elated me up

The pedestal is where I'm at.

Your beautty sacred and divine

My Rose, my love,

    Are you still mine?

The feel of your touch

    I miss...

The warmth of your presence

    My heavenly bliss...

My eyes deceive me

    But I know you're there

Why can't I feel you?

    Do you still care?

Tears fell like pouring rain

The sadness is maddening

    I can no longer breathe.

My heart's constricted

    I'm out of air.

Oh my Rose, why can't you feel?

You've grown hard

    almost surreal

Your thorns they cut me

    two times more deep.

You broke your promise

    you said you'll keep

Why betray me my Rose?

    I weep...

#ChroniclesOfRose

The Fallen Rose

And I’m at the sea of storms

Trapped in this desolation.

Where waves surge high

Drowning me to my death bed.

The ship has sank,

The storm raged on.

I couldn’t breathe,

I couldn’t go on.

The wind is howling,

Barking mad at me.

It showed me no mercy

I was swept off at sea.

The pain was overwhelming

I cried a thousand tears.

But even then I did it so

It’s no use, I’m barely breathing.

#ChroniclesOfRose

Broken Rose

My eyes have a mind of their own.

They never listen.

They never care.

Tears are free flowing.

They never cooperate.

My heart has a mind of its own too.

Stubborn and irrational.

Cannot be reasoned coz it’s blinded.

Emotional now that it is wounded.

Broken coz it won’t listen.

My mind was ripped off of pride.

No longer the boss.

No longer the most supreme high.

Its grace has fallen.

Forgotten.

So from here, where do I run?

Where do I go?

Who shall I turn to?

When the who I used to be,

Is gone?

Comfort has become an illusion.

The Rose became a myth.

Its beauty faded into the realms of time.

I was alone.

#ChroniclesOfRose

Rose

I was lost in this queer place.

I was alone.

I seek for cover and comfort.

But it was never there to find.

No beacon of light to hope.

There was nothing there for me.

I walked on, shoulder slumped.

Devastated. Broken.

But just when I thought all hope is gone,

One flower pulled me back from the pit of death.

Alone and standing proud,

Its crimson beauty held my ground.

Stunned by its glory,

I was alive again.

And so without hesitation I plucked it.

I was at the pedestal.

I was no longer alone.

I have my Rose to accompany in this lonely journey.

Fleeting as the happiness came,

Pain swiftly cut through me like a wind passing.

My heart was broken into a million shards.

My world crumbled as my Rose withered away.

No sunshine can bring my Rose back.

No amount of tears can surmount the loss.

My selfishness, consumed its beauty.

My desperation killed my Rose.

And so alone I took the road again.

Broken. Dead. 

#ChroniclesOfRose

D'Rose

Over time I walked through this barren road

No splendid things not once my eyes behold,

I walked far and didn't turn back

For there's nothing there to hold me back.

And then I came across this lowly meadow

My eyes drowned from its vibrant colors,

I breathe in the sweet scent of hope 

As I sank deeper into the kaleidoscope.

But amidst the scent and the clash of colors

One flower caught my heart and soul.

The way it stood alone and proud

I knew right then I am found.

I gaze through its spell bound beauty

My heart ached to the comfort of its sanctuary.

I want to touch it...

I want to feel it...

Knowing that with it, I'll be whole again.

And so I draw myself nearer

And every step I take I fall deeper.

My rose, my heart exclaimed,

At last I found you - My rose, my Love.

But with your beauty comes your thorns

You cut me deep and my heart was torn.

I wept and bled but I didn't mind

Because deep inside I know you're mine.

I tried to keep you all to myself

Tried to hide you from stray passers by.

But your color starts to fade

Your flower withered as I hold your place.

My heart sank as you withered away

Fear engulfed me as I cry.

Losing you I could never survive

I must make a way

I can't just leave you and die.

And so I distanced myself.

Every step backward is torture.

Watching you from afar I cannot stand it

But for you I will endure anything.

Days passed and your color returns

I was mesmerized yet again with your beauty.

But now I know I couldn't be with you

Even if my heart says with you is where I should be.

My Rose, do know my heart's thine yours

Part of me will always be yours.

From then on...

You'll be the Beauty enclosed forever in my heart

And as for me, I'll be your Beast.

#ChroniclesOfRose